i want to be a good daughter to my parents, i want to be the best sister to my siblings. but i just cannot do it because i cannot control my emotions. my words hurt people. i am the one to blame. indeed, the world is better of without me.
swallowed in the sea
Thursday 14 October 2021
Saturday 22 August 2020
medschool.
by the time i post again, i would be in medschool. honestly i was so shocked with my UPU result. i was hoping to get into medical laboratory technology again but oh wow wow who could've think of this. i am currently shitting myself as i am doubting myself whether i can do this whole medicine journey or not.
i know nobody gives a shit but in case you stumbled upon this and a lil curious. i was a diploma student, i am 21, medschool is 5 years so insyaAllah i'll be graduating when i am 26. fun :) here's my journey:
SPM > Diploma in Medical Laboratory Technology > MBBS UiTM
yes, you can pursue medicine if you are taking diploma but only in UiTM, last time i checked. and only those who take specific courses can do it. can check in the syarat kelayakan.
how i feel?
it was a childhood dream come true. emphasis on the childhood. because growing up, i don't recall wanting to become a doctor. hahahhaha maybe because i already got the bitter taste during diploma. throughout my whole diploma, my friends has been telling me to do medicine as my result is good enough but i've always been like 'no, never, not for me' hahaha, it's true that the thing we hate the most is what we will get lol. so, i'm quite nervous but i am still anticipating it. alhamdulillah ala kulli hal. this is what best for me, insyaAllah. He is the best planner, after all. please make a lot of duas for me, frens.
hmm, there's not really much to say now. i haven't even register yet so this is it, i guess. another turning point in my life. here's to me becoming a human bean that provides for the people :-)
till then.
Sunday 28 June 2020
i am not going to do it.
Tuesday 16 June 2020
sad.
you know how people have their ‘bad day’ of the week or like month? well mine was like living in the darkness for so long that i only get to spend few days of ‘good days’. fuck, i’m so bad at describing this but jesus do i want to die.